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Don't go with stream; don't go against the current, go across it if you want to reach the shore.
Chinese aphorism Vantala.
How did I get here or answer on the frequently asking question.
All begins in the one beautiful day of my life when my father and I found time to make the dream. We sat down in a divan, got the atlas, took paper and pens. After that during whole day we was forming a plan of "where and when we will go". Indeed, at that time I felt myself a free person. Place didn't choose me. I decided where will break my alarm clock. In this moment my unconscious partitions crash down.
We saw what needed more then just a plan and the world map was hung in the wall. On my computer desktop I put image of sunburn girl is sitting in the shore of a sea and watching to a horizon and white clouds. My father chose a man who cut a big wave on the board. We needed to look at our dream everyday. We don't want to forget it.
Then we have gone through test on fidelity to the dream. People was looking to us with patronizing smile because they just saw how two person have gone mad, but they thought that we are a kind of good people and decided didn't laugh at us. Meanwhile we was working and dreaming with coupled teeth. Don't know what my father felt, but I already can't refuse my dream so easily. I already had sensed a hot sun and heard the smell of the sea. I got a physical pain because I had to back to reality everyday. And here three things were happened which help me to be winner in this fight for my dream.
I got order to make site for the state of Florida. In particular I had to create design for such cities like Miami Beach, Atlantic Beach, Pensacola, Tallahassee… Throughout the month, 25 hours of day (that's exactly time I worked) I saw many pictures of sea, yachts, the surfing and just sunburn people who was laughing and swimming in seawater. Generally speaking I didn't work – I was dreaming.
Second thing was words of my good friend (How opinion of those around one influence nevertheless on our life!) We were disputing. Like always I asserted that if people want something they will get everything was wished.
Then he asked me:
- Tell me then, why are you still not in the warm part of the world?
- May be I don't want so much… - was my answer.
Indeed, in that time I wanted to go to the Saint Petersburg, but before few days of this conversation I changed my mind by private reasons. As the saying goes: the true is born in dispute. In next morning I woke up and listened myself. Success people assert if something is going wrong don't search for excuse because problem is inside you. And I decided I don't want sad fairy tales anymore and tired from the pain. The quiet came in my soul. I looked on the map, turned over the pages of atlas, sat down to work on Florida. The lucky letter came from serious man. Anybody else, but I didn't expect he can send that. Evidently it was the sing. I accounted how many people I must to clog mail box in last hour, but today demon of obstinacy woke up inside me and nothing can changed my mind, I started to use all chances. "After 3 days I should get a result" – I told my parents and forgot about it. But the subconscious don't sleep. It works.
After 3 days, 13 of February 2003, I received invitation to work and live in the Caribbean islands. My father wave away: "we already receive offers from the dead Mr.Cabilla's relatives and theirs companions". But I respond on the letter and in the 8 of March I presented myself a gift: my foot touched the coastal sand, ear caught voice of wave, glance admired the blue skyline of Antigua island. The felt of warm ease winds was so strange after frost of Russia.
So, I demonstrated a clear example that everybody can do everything is wished. But people like to find excuses for theirs problems and now I already hear the stupendous objection: "It's only yours dreams come true". I am got laugh.
People! Don't stop yourself to dream. Execution of dream don't bring empty. It give the paradise pleasure.
July, 2003
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